In-flu-en-za

It all started with a nagging sore throat that I was determined to ignore......
The fever is the worst thing because i can't get comfy because I ache all over. The headache has stayed minimal as long as I keep my body full of ibuprofen.
Today, I also am dizzy, nauseated and still have the D word that I had yesterday that I hoped would go away.
I keep thinking I should take the time to update my blog.
I have really lost my joy in blogs, and it is because I used them as a vehicle to rant about my bitter feelings. Yech! (I am sure that is not the way to spell that)
Somehow, I have to get over the feeling that life should be fair.  I truly used to be a positive person, but I have become cynical, insensitive, and cranky!  It is amazing to me that in 1 short year I have become this..... snarky, cry baby.
I do not want to blog about why.
I know why, and I still feel upset about it.  I just am sure that it will never change.
My emotion is resignation, I guess.
Influenza has made me stop from my busy life and LOOK at my life.
I have numerous blessings, and remarkably, plenty of friends.
I guess my emotion is also sadness.  I am going to move on...... without the person I have been mad, worried, and snarky about.
I have not passed my test, and it will take some work on my part to remove the bitterness.

I know I can do it.
I already am looking forward to my new life, my new heart.
What i need now is rest.